❤ finally.
Hey people.
I broke it off with Lucas 2 days ago. Alright, so here's what happened. Ok, I lost my feelings for him. I didnt love him anymore. Idk. he's more of a brother than a boyfriend to me. yeah.. and like on wednesday, I was in maths and i passed a note to Bekki and I was like " Hey, I feel like I want to break up with Lucas." and like yeah.. after I told Bekki , I told Angel and asked her for help. Then, I told Edina and Jacki I asked them for help and I was like " i wanna do it on friday the 13th of march." and they were like " marie, dont delay." and jacki was like " I know he'll understand." and like i thought to myself like " if i dont do it now, i'll be lying to him." and like that after noon we had mulitmedia and like i told sarah and brigette. and after that i kept asking them for help and we kept talking then after that they also didnt know what to do so we asked Jen and Aria. After that they told me to ask reece for help cos he's a guy. And then after that, I seriously couldnt do it. I was freezing my hands off. After that I just had to do it.
I went up to Lucas and do it. ok, here's our convo
Me: Hey, umm, I just wanna be friends with you. Besties like before.
Lucas: Why?
Me: umm, I lost my feelings for you.
Lucas: oh..
Me: I just lost it. I dont love you anymore.
Lucas: So what does this mean?
Me: Im breaking up with you.
Lucas : oh. Can i just talk to you later?
gosh. His eyes went all red and watery. omg. I reckon he was crying at home. Ok, I don't have the guts to say this to your face Lucas because I've hurt you enough.ok,
To Lucas :
Lucas, I am so sorry if i hurt you. I just lost my feelings for you. You are more like a brother than a boyfriend to me. I just totally lost my feelings for you. Im sorry. I know I've hurt you A LOT. I know you'll eventually get over me. Seriously, don't be sad. you'll find someone better than me. Im sorry. I don't love you anymore. But we'll still be besties like before . It would mean a lot to me if we stayed besties and no more than that. Really. You'll find someone better than me. I had a lot of fun when we were going out. :L Anyways, Im sure u'll find another chick who is way much more better than me and you will love her more than you love me ok? :L lol. Dw bout things :L You'll find someone.
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-_- alright. so I dont have the guts to say that to his face. seriously, I want to be single right now... and yeah.. When I grow up, I wanna stay single, work, party, hang out with my mates and travel the world.. Thats what I wanna do.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
❤ 18.2.09
Hello :D okok.
I have a confession : I was tipsy yesterday IN SCHOOL! ok, angel had 2/3 Borboun(alchohol) and 1/3 coke in a 600 ml bottle and I drank half of that bottle. and then Edina drank like 3 mouth fulls of that drink. OK ok, I admit, I was tipsy. I didnt want to admit it yesterday in school because I didnt want to fight with Lucas. I get so effing annoyed when I fight with Lucas. I dont want to fight with him. anyway, yesterday morning, angel brought 2 bottles of that stuff and like she came to me and she was likeAngel:" oi marie come with me." Me: why?Angel: Just come * points to bottle* me: ooohhhh. OKok. and then she told me it was like Borbourn and coke mixed together. :L Ok, this is what happened in multimedia, I was talking to Lucas and I was like " do i smell like shit?" and he was like " no." and I was like smelling my own breath and I was like " oh k. I stepped in dog poo." and like I was smelling my breath and he was like " oh. why are u smelling ur breath? did u eat the shit or something? " and like I kept asking him for the whole lesson until there was like 20 mins left of that lesson I was like " ok, I drank, Borboun mixed with coke." and he was like "yeah. I know. I could smell you when u sat next to me just now when u drank out of that bottle angel had and then right after that u sat next to me and u talked to me . I could smell u." I was like "oh." so yeah.. he found out. lol. Anyway, its over now. I got Tipsy yesterday I was wrong I know. Im never doin that again. anyway, Lol. Today fucking Krystal gave Lucas a "restraining order" nahh. its not a REAL LEGAL one. its just some bull shit only 5 or 6 year olds would play. so fucking PATHETIC. LOL and Edina read it and we were at the Tuck Shop and like the thing said " Mikayla's lawyer, Krystal Hansen" FUCK YOU . Whatever fuckwitt. Mikayla and her fuckwitt friend, Krystal, can go die and ROT in HELL. Fuck u man. Go eat urself. Stupid idiots. chee bye la! Knn. So fucking annoying. Btw, Krystal's voice is like so effing annoying sounds like a fat person like fuckin heifer talking. Oh yeah, u are a heifer. Ass. Go fuck urself so fucking pathetic. Anyway, there is no doubt that Mikayla still likes Lucas. haha. No one gives a shit. aww.. so sad. NOT!
Anyway,
Lucas is on now. Shall go chat with him.
cyas.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
❤ 17.2.09
Hello Peoples.
Today, I got a fucking huge head ache from that drink Angel gave me. It was burboun mixed with coke. lol. 2/3 alchohol in that bottle and 1/3 coke. :L:L lol. I was fucking dizzy in class man. :L but I made Lucas sad man . that was just really gay.
anyway, ugh. fuckin hell i need to read chapter 6-19 of dont call me ishmael. stupid book. asses. UGH! Im like on chapter 8. The very first page of chapter 8. :L:L
lol. Anyway, i need to do things. :L
cya.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
❤ 15.2.09
gosh. havent been blogging in fucking AGES. ugh! I've got school tmr. fuck. ughh! So grumpy. fuckin mood swings. anyway, today went to Calamvale and then got lost. wtf. and then this morning i went to church after that went to woolworths, then after that went back home. Suddenly so hungry. Then after that I ate food. :L then I was still hungry but i didnt eat. Then after that I got cravings for chocolate and then Sis got like millions of chocolate from Vin so she gave me one and then after that I was like "ughhhh.. I want more." and then I was like " I wanna go to woolworths and eat everything." something was fucking wrong with me man :L lol. I went to bed at like 1.20 am last night man . I was watching Australia . :L go on for like more than 2 hours. fuck. :L:L got up this morning and I wasnt that tired. lol. :L:L anyway, Lucas better come online soon! ugh.
Sunday, February 15, 2009