❤ finally.
Hey people.
I broke it off with Lucas 2 days ago. Alright, so here's what happened. Ok, I lost my feelings for him. I didnt love him anymore. Idk. he's more of a brother than a boyfriend to me. yeah.. and like on wednesday, I was in maths and i passed a note to Bekki and I was like " Hey, I feel like I want to break up with Lucas." and like yeah.. after I told Bekki , I told Angel and asked her for help. Then, I told Edina and Jacki I asked them for help and I was like " i wanna do it on friday the 13th of march." and they were like " marie, dont delay." and jacki was like " I know he'll understand." and like i thought to myself like " if i dont do it now, i'll be lying to him." and like that after noon we had mulitmedia and like i told sarah and brigette. and after that i kept asking them for help and we kept talking then after that they also didnt know what to do so we asked Jen and Aria. After that they told me to ask reece for help cos he's a guy. And then after that, I seriously couldnt do it. I was freezing my hands off. After that I just had to do it.
I went up to Lucas and do it. ok, here's our convo
Me: Hey, umm, I just wanna be friends with you. Besties like before.
Lucas: Why?
Me: umm, I lost my feelings for you.
Lucas: oh..
Me: I just lost it. I dont love you anymore.
Lucas: So what does this mean?
Me: Im breaking up with you.
Lucas : oh. Can i just talk to you later?
gosh. His eyes went all red and watery. omg. I reckon he was crying at home. Ok, I don't have the guts to say this to your face Lucas because I've hurt you enough.ok,
To Lucas :
Lucas, I am so sorry if i hurt you. I just lost my feelings for you. You are more like a brother than a boyfriend to me. I just totally lost my feelings for you. Im sorry. I know I've hurt you A LOT. I know you'll eventually get over me. Seriously, don't be sad. you'll find someone better than me. Im sorry. I don't love you anymore. But we'll still be besties like before . It would mean a lot to me if we stayed besties and no more than that. Really. You'll find someone better than me. I had a lot of fun when we were going out. :L Anyways, Im sure u'll find another chick who is way much more better than me and you will love her more than you love me ok? :L lol. Dw bout things :L You'll find someone.
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-_- alright. so I dont have the guts to say that to his face. seriously, I want to be single right now... and yeah.. When I grow up, I wanna stay single, work, party, hang out with my mates and travel the world.. Thats what I wanna do.
Thursday, February 26, 2009